♄ Lolitium ♄

It’s been awhile since my last post. I cannot for the life of me figure out how to squeeze in the time to blog, and I feel like I should explain why.

So here it is…

I work full time now (night shift) and that takes a lot of my energy. And then I intern in the morning and plus I’m still in class. I spend my weekends doing homework and sleeping. I’m literally aching all over and I don’t even know why! A full-time desk job may not be the right fit for me. I like a mixture of walking around and sitting. Or maybe it’s just the environment that’s affecting my attitude in general? It’s probably the latter…

But anyway, instead of typing out everything, here’s a general gist of what happened over the past few weeks:

• Started work – night shifts
• I’m always tired and sleepy
• Realized I’m quite a territorial person
• My eyes got irritated from driving and typing on the computer
• It got even more irritated by just being outside in the daylight
• I’m not getting enough sleep
• I got a speeding ticket
• Received my first paycheck
• My first big paycheck ever, too
• I’m sick of computers
• Got an iPod shuffle in purple, of course
• I’m only happy when it rains (it’s a song, but the statement still holds true)

Shintaro Ohata 「アジサイ」

I would take little naps whenever and wherever I can as well. Sometimes I sleep in my car, and sometimes I’m just too exhausted to eat. I have never been that exhausted to NOT eat before. I think there was one night where I came home from work, and crawled into bed and curled up holding my beloved polar bear and cried And then, in a few hours, I would get up and get ready for my internship.

But…

At least I’m working hard I purposely picked this job because I wanted a foundation to build me. I didn’t want to start out with a suit, I wanted a background before spoiling among the filth.

Why, what do you know? I’m actually blogging a real blog entry—something that I haven’t done in years! I found that people dislike these types of entries because it requires reading -lol-

The weather here is getting warmer, and you know what that means? I have nothing to wear. I mostly just shop for fall/winter wear, it’s actually hard for me to shop for warmer months because I find it to be a hassel. Who likes to have clothes on when it’s above 90 degrees outside?

I forgot to mention, but Disqus (my commenting system) decided to make me switch to the New Disqus, so please remember to leave a link to your blog, if you have one because I’m interested in reading your blog, too! Otherwise, it’ll be hard for me to look for you.

Despite everything, in the end, she watched the blazing fire roared up into the sky. She cried cinders, and trembled to the thought of retribution. No longer an existence, the dead of her eyes has been forgotten.

….. I didn’t blog last week. I was preoccupied with other things and each time I came home from my intern, all I want to do is stare up into space. I’ve been spending a lot on food I cannot control it! I’m overspending again But I’m a big girl now, must make responsible decisions!

Since my camera is currently being used by someone…. I’m recycling an old photo hehe. Oh, a lot of people were asking what I do for my intern, but I didn’t answer because I like to keep that private. It’s nothing super impressive or anything like that. I’m currently still working on some clerical stuff till I work my way up to taking over the world~you know, just the usual stuff

oh, it’s February. I expect candies.

Happy Early Valentines Day!